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“As it happened I did not grow up to be the kind of woman who is the heroine in a Western, and although the men I have known have had many virtues and have taken me to live in many places I have come to love, they have never been John Wayne, and they have never taken me to that bend in the river where the cottonwoods grow. Deep in that part of my heart where the artificial rain forever falls, that is still the line I wait to hear. …in a world we understood early to be characterized by venality and doubt and paralyzing ambiguities, he (John Wayne) suggested another world, one which may or may not have existed ever but in any case existed no more”

~John Didion